Adam goes back to school tomorrow. It feels like it is going to break my heart. He brings so much balance to our family. Honestly Ryan is a terror when Adam isn't around. It's hard on everyone.
Here is my inner battle: my desire to keep him at home vs The knowledge that school is what is best for him... Why is it so hard! Perhaps it would be easier if all the kids were school age and could go together. But I am not convinced I will not grieve this either.